I think the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the only things that dont change when everybody else does

Tsauksid! Kuna head uut aastat enam soovida pole mõtet, siis seda ma teile soovima ei hakka. Soovin lihtsalt, et uuel aastal täituksid teie unistused ja soovid! No ilmselt mitte kõik, sest ahneks ei saa ju ka minna, kuid midagigi head võiks siiski juhtuda. Uueks aastaks ma õnnnneks lubadusi ei andnud, väike mõte küll oli, et luban innukamalt blogida, kuid nagu näha ei oleks sellest ju midagi head välja tulnud, sest..sest täna on juba 7.jaanuar- haha. Tänane postitus õnnestub ka ilmselt selle tõttu, et olen haige.. :(  
Paid! 

Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being along never was. At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.