This world is just illusion, always trying to change you

Päevad mööduvad nii kiiresti ja tahtmatult ei ole mul lihtsalt aega oma rutiinsest elust siia kirjutada.

Viimane nädal mu elust möödus väga, väga positiivselt(loe: Nv), järgnevad päevad olid lihtsalt..nagu ikka.. tavalised, väljaarvatud minu ja Helina ebatavaline teisipäev, hihih. 

Kuna reedene koolipäev oli vaba ja olin eelnevalt otsustanud, et ma niiiiii väga vajan endale palavikku, sest see on hetkel niii moes lihtsalt, otsustasin, et tulen koju end ravima. 

Tänasest veel nii palju, et plaane on rohkem kui motivatsiooni millekski, aga eks näis mis saab.

Järgnevad 2 nädalat on meil kööginädalad, teisisõnu...jääb see koht siin unarusse.

Ja mis veel mainimisväärt on... mul on täpselt 3 nädala pärast sünnipäev, wohoo! 

Ma veel ei tea kus, kellega ja milleks...aga eks näis mis sellest kõigest välja kujuneb.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you..

Viimased koolipäevad on möödunud üsna kiirelt. Koolis on nii hea olla lihtsalt! Praktika kaitsmine läks ka väga edukalt, niiet kokkuvõtteks on hetkel kooliga kõik mui bueno!

Eile rõõmustas mind oma kõnega Tallink... tuleb tõdeda, et kui midagi tõesti tahta, siis ei ole ükski takistus määrav.

Homne päev tõotab tulla paljulubav, nimelt on meil homme esimesed prantuse keele tunnid. Wohoo!

Nädalavahetusest veel nii palju, et kuna ma olen viimasel ajal nii tujutu, siis ilmselt veedan selle parem kodus, hihih.

Paid!

See you soon!

The problem about cutting out the best of your heart and giving it to people, is that 1. It hurts to do that; and 2. You never know if they are going to throw it away or not. But then you should still do it. Because any other way is cowardice. At the end of the day, it's about being brave and we are only haunted by the ghosts that we trap within ourselves; we are not haunted by the ghosts that we let out. We are haunted by the ghosts that we cover and hide. So you let those ghosts out in that best piece of your heart that you give to someone. And if the other person throws it away? Or doesn't want it to begin with? Someone else will come along one day, cut out from his/her heart that exact same jagged shape that you cut out of your own heart, and make their piece of heart fit into the rest of yours. Wait for that person. And you can fill their missing piece with your soul.

Sometimes, you just have to wonder how many times someone you care about has to hurt you before you finally don't care.

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

Paid!

Don't ever forget who was there for you when no one else was.

Tsauki, mu armsad!

Suvi on läbisaanud ja esimene koolinädalgi on üleelatud, v no mis üleelatud- koolis on kõikse parem olla, tegelikult ka! Veel viimased 6 kuud oma kõige parema klassiga! See on uskumatu, see aeg on kuidagi nii kiiresti möödunud... ja nüüd jõuame kõik koos lõpusirgele. Nii hea tunne on! 

Viimastest päevadest veel nii palju, et peale mandrilt tulekut tunnen end justkui teise inimesena. Heh, seda on päris keeruline seletada, aga nii on. 

Reedel toimus meil klassiga väike koos istumine. Ma olen ääretult õnnelik, et me selle korraldasime, sest see oli lihtsalt nii positiivne ja nii naljakas(?) hihih.

Arutlesime seal igasugustest teemadest... ja lihtsalt, olime muretud. 

Peale klassi istumist, läksime poole seltskonnaga minu juurde- oih, unustasin... mul on nüüd linnas ka väikest viisi kodu. :) 

Igatahes, kõik kukkus enam-vähem edukalt välja. Mul on parim klass, parim seltskond ja parimad sõbrad! Beat that!